From Quirky to Indistinguishable?

 

This is probably the most difficult stage of our ABA program.  I am not entirely sure that we are “Indistinguishable”.  He does not really exhibit enough of the DSM criteria to be considered autistic.   He does not score anywhere near the cutoff for autism on the C.A.R.S. test. Part of the reason is because Lukas is not like everyone else.  This is not necessarily a negative thing either.  Lukas is unique.  He is a character.    He is gregarious.   If he was more shy, he could blend in more.  It is ironic to say that a person who carried an autism label is way too friendly and wants to engage with people too much.  He is well aware of differences between himself and others. It is not a lack of theory of mind either.  Part of the problem is that he doesn’t care that he is different.  For him,  being different is good.   An example:

 

 

His first grade class got a special treat-  an assembly!  They didn’t have their afternoon lesson as usual.     Lukas came home to tell me about it.  He told me that his teacher read the announcement to the class.   He then looked at me and said,  “mom?  Know what the class did? “

 

“what?” I replied.

 

“They all yelled “yes!” and “yay!”.”

 

“oh?”  I said, smiling.

 

“yeah.  But not ME!   I yelled  JUMPING JOE!  I was different”

 

Lukas looked at me with a big grin on his face.  He was happy that he was different.  He thought it was cool.  Lukas is also a bit hyperactive.   This doesn’t mean that he is constantly bouncing off the walls but he does constantly MOVE and DO things.  His mind is constantly going.  I have had to ban him from the kitchen because he would constantly “do experiments”.   I don’t think I have ever heard Lukas say  “mom?  I am booooored.   I having nothing to do.”

 

I think that one has to look at what they think the term “Indistinguishable” means.   Some have defined it in terms of cognitive, social, and language testing.  Is the child within normal limits?   Others have defined it as meaning that an autism expert will go into a classroom and observe, not knowing who the labeled child is, and if the expert can’t pick the child out,  then the child is indistinguishable.  We decided that for us, indistinguishable would be our goal.  Indistinguishable meant that he would test within normal range on language tests and social behavior.   Part of being indistinguishable meant that we could leave him in a room full of people and not have to disclose the label incase he did anything “weird”.  Some parents, even parents of Aspergers and “high functioning autism” children end up having to disclose, wherever they go, the label of their child.  One reason is that their child might be prone to tantrums or total sudden meltdowns.  We did not want that for Lukas.  We felt that if  Lukas couldn’t lose his autism label,  then we should at least equip him with the tools to control his autism.  Autism would either be irrelevant or controlled by Lukas.

 

We saw his particular autism like a disease.  I know that offends some people, especially some adults with autism who are doing remarkably well.    I can here them say  I am not a disease.”

Well,  I didn’t  say the people with autism are a disease.  We don’t see autism as a central part of who Lukas is.   Lukas is a person.  Lukas is an individual.   He is not a label.

 

              “My child had the measles once.  It was a little scary but he pulled through.”  

 

That sentence above is well accepted by many.  No one would ever suggest that measles was a central part of who his or her child was.  

 

“My child had autism.  It was rough going but he recovered.”

 

Why is that so hard for people to accept?  I think that is because autism has been in the domain of psychiatrists and psychologists for decades and it is hard to move beyond that.  It is still diagnosed through psychiatric manuals even though everyone agrees that it is a neurological disorder.  Since not all children will recover,  it is hard to accept that such a thing is even possible. 50 years ago,  most professionals didn’t even think that children with autism could really learn, despite evidence that even a chicken in a lab could learn..  30 years ago,  it was blamed on bad mothering despite evidence that many children who are horribly abused do not suffer from autism..  We now know it is neurological in origin and has nothing to do with parenting.   We now know that children can learn.  Some do not believe recovery is possible despite that the fact that there are recovered children.  Perhaps when there are enough recovered children,  they will change their opinion. It seems as though public opinion and the opinion of professionals tend to run decades behind scientific proof.

 

If Lukas couldn’t recover from autism like some recover from the measles, then we would accept that.  Accepting this though doesn’t mean that you let it take whatever course it may.  We would treat this neurological condition like some parents treat Diabetes.

 

            “My child has diabetes. He controls it and there is no need to tell the entire world about it.  His doctors know and treat it well and he has learned to take care of himself and knows the warning signs of when his sugar levels are off.  The medications and educating him has kept it from affecting him too much.  He knows how to take care of reactions.”

               

 

             “My child has autism. He controls it and there is no need to tell the entire world about it.  His doctors know and treat it well and he has learned to take care of himself and knows the warning signs of when his autism is causing him to be off.  The medications and educating him has kept it from affecting him too much.  He knows how to take care of reactions.”

 

 

Either way,   we believed and still believe that Lukas can be indistinguishable in that we won’t have to advertise his label “just in case”.  

 

 

However, when we finished out most of the Lovaas curriculum, we found that he wasn’t suddenly “okay”. Our consultant said that this was a “fine tuning” stage of ironing out any autism “residuals”.  What I don’t know is how many children who go through an entire Lovaas curriculum need “fine tuning”.  There doesn’t seem to be any real research on this.    It is possible that some receive intervention early enough that they begin to learn those subtle social rules right along with their peers.   I don’t know what makes these children different from children who sail through Lovaas or Verbal Behavior programs and still need tweaking.

 

Ever do a literature search for materials that will tell you how to take your child from Quirkey to Indistinguishable?   There isn’t anything.  I was disappointed.   All these ABA experts say that they have seen child who are and yet,  no one had put together anything that would tell others how to go that last 100 yards.  Catherine Maurice didn’t write anything about this stage.  There wasn’t extensive notes on the Me-list from other parents.   It certainly wasn’t in Dr. Lovaas’ outdated Me-book.  Work in Progress?  No.   The ABLLS assessment guide?  No.   A Carbone workshop?  Heck no. 

 

Why?

 

Well,  there are a number of reasons.

 

 

Three children who are recovered and have notes on how the intervention program was designed are Catherine Maurices’ two children and the Sumlins.   The Sumlins are a family that has left detailed descriptions of their program for Me-List members.  I am assuming that they must not have had a period of “quirkey to indistinguishable”.   There just isn’t any notes on their therapists puzzling over what is not right.  Perhaps their intervention began early enough that the child started to learn some of these social and language skills on their own in preschool when most NT kids are a little quirkey themselves.  They seemed to have done a number of social stories and shaping but again,  they were still in an ABA program while doing this.   It appears as though they hadn’t run out of programs and were still struggling with social issues. Perhaps the type of autism that these two children had let them be recoverable.  Either way, I am under the impression that they did not struggle with older children and quirks. My child was very different at two and three from the Sumlin child and Maurice’s child.   It would make sense that he would still be different from them at 6 years of age.

 

I also know that I am more picky than some parents.   I look for “residuals” in more subtle ways.  I can “pass” Lukas among parents of other NT children but I can still see where he struggles. Perhaps others would call him Indistinguishable long before I would.  I have not yet decided if I am just hypercritical or not.  I do think that some skilled parents running ABA programs would be able to pick him out- after a while.

 

The other reason I think there isn’t a Fine-Tuning Guide for Dummies  is that children at this stage are more different than alike.  Each quirk is different.  Each child will have different quirks.  There isn’t enough common quirks among children with autism to write a common flow chart on.

 

So what have we done?  What are we doing?

 

We watched Lukas.  We had literally hundreds of hours of observation.  We looked at what made him “bad” different.  We didn’t want him thinking that being different was bad.  It wasn’t.  It isn’t.  However, there are times that being different is bad.  This isn’t black and white.  There are shades of gray.   Liking different toys is a good different.  Licking snot off your nose is a bad different.  For us, bad different were things that would socially isolate Lukas.  Good quirks might be something like having a love for Tabasco sauce on everything.  A bad quirk would be talking to your self while in a bathroom stall.

 

My first piece of advice is to not work on everything at once.  You will go crazy if you do and your child may find the pressure to be too much.    Pick one “quirk” at a time.  Think back to the early ABA days.   You didn’t work on three years worth of IEP goals on the same day.  You picked a few goals at a time and worked on them until mastery before picking up the next goals.

The same still applies to fine tuning.  You have to actually place your child in social situations to see where the weaknesses are.   School is not always the best place to judge this.  Very little valuable social skills occur in skill.  Group skills like sitting nicely in circle time, lining up, and learning to not talk out loud are practiced.  It is only in places like recess can you see where the child is different.  

 

For us, Recess was a bit like Lord of the Flies.  For whatever reason, teachers never seem to be very involved in this time.   No matter what school we have attended, recess has meant 40-60 kids  all running around an enclosed space while 2-4 teacher aides stand in one corner of the playground talking.  While 1st grade was better in that teachers actually watched over their own flock,  they still didn’t walk around the playground and actually listen to the children. They were way too far away to actually HEAR what the children were saying.  They didn’t offer appropriate activities and encourage social skills.  It was 40-60 kids contained but not guided.  It is moments like this that you can see where your child is the most weak.  Does he negotiate groups or is he a loner?  It is the loner kids that are targets for bullies.    Does he handle being bullied well or does he crumble and make himself a bigger target for bullies?  Does he have a variety of activities he can do should his favourite thing be unavailable?  Does he have more than just one child he can play with?

 

We developed many programs specifically for Lukas to iron out some of the quirks.  These programs include   Discrimination Training,   People Watch, NVLD,  I FEEL,  Check Me,

RDI, TOM (theory of mind) , TOM/Syntax, and ICPS all of which are described in detail on this website.  These programs addressed the fine-tuning issues that Lukas specifically had.  You may find that some of these issues are not the same for another child.  Only through careful observation of novel social situations can one really figure out what subtle issues are there.   If you never put your child into settings where they might fail, then you will never truly iron out those quirks that will prevent them from having friends,  getting along with coworkers, and learning to navigate the world -  which is full of people who will not be very reinforcing.

 

Discrimination training was largely based in DTT teaching and ABA.    People Watch, NVLD, and I Feel are programs developed after hearing Dr. Nowicki on a public radio program.  While he was addressing the needs of children with Nonverbal Language Disorders,  we felt that it would benefit Lukas.  We bought the book “Teaching Your Child the Language of Social Success” by Marshall and Nowicki[1].   We found the materials to be very helpful and we wished we had read the book sooner.  If we had,  we would have implemented its suggestions into our gestures and emotions program.  This  would have been a logical “follow up” program to these two common ABA programs.   People Watch would have been another logical program to use after the describe, emotions, and TOM program.   RDI was based on Dr. Steven Gutstein’s book Solving the Relationship Puzzle[2].  If we had read this book when we started ABA,  then all downtime play of our program would have not been “free time” but a time to work on social programming.  Dr. Gutstein’s book actually flows well with ABA and is a perfect tool to generalize skills taught.  It gives therapists a guide on what to do which I think is important because so many therapists have forgotten how to play and enjoy play.   TOM and then the program that evolved out of it, TOM/Syntax were taken from many resources: the me-list,  Teaching Children with Autism to Mind read,  Mind blindness,  developmental checklists, etc.

ICPS program comes from Mryna Shure’s book “I Can Problem Solve”[3] .  While she wrote the book for a classroom,  it was easily adapted to our ABA program.   Lastly,  teaching Lukas to defend himself and to learn that people are not always as nice as his tutors,  was a major step in equipping him to deal with life in the public school jungle.  I should point out that we learned very early on that Carol Gray Social Stories were NOT an option for us and that most “autism” books that claimed to teach social behavior,  did not work with Lukas and actually made things worse.   See “Social Stories- Not always the answer to autism. Our decisions to move away from rule based teaching that is pervasive among  autism professionals” in the essay section of our website for a more detailed explaination of why.

 

Fine tuning can be one of the single hardest stages because your therapy team has to decide the all important question of “what is normal?”   Is this how a person should respond?  Is this how a person should think?  Is this a cultural bias of your own upbringing versus a true skill that you should have?

 

We are a multicultural,  multilingual family.  We are living in a particular part of the world that neither my husband nor I totally understand.  The values, expressions, and way of thinking and living here are different. I have watched how our family communicates.   My family is known for being more reserved and communicating through nonverbal expressions.  I once invited a friend to dinner with my father and sister..   After dinner,  he told me that it was the weirdest experience he ever had.  He said that he was constantly under the feeling that he was missing something.  We didn’t finish our sentences.  We did a lot of nodding and facial expressions.  He had no clue what we were talking about virtually the entire night.  My family must seem so rigid, antisocial, and nonverbal to that of my in-laws.

 

On the other hand,  my husband’s family is quite the opposite.  They speak loudly. They speak over each other.   They use their hands and bodies to speak.  They use circular reasoning. Their use of nonverbal language and voice is completely opposite my own.  They finish their sentences and then some!  This seems normal to my in-laws.  To my family, this could appear to be uncontrolled, lacking in both social skills and logical thought to my side of the family.

 

Is it fair for me to apply my own cultural upbringing to the term normal?

 

I remember that I was once annoyed by a comment made in the book, A Work in Progress by Ron Leaf.   While I highly suggest this book for parents who are wanting to know more about ABA and different methods of teaching DTT,  I also know that they made a cultural judgment in the book.   It was on the issue of sleeping in parents’ beds.    The authors said that it was very important to work on getting the child to sleep in their own bed because you don’t want to have this child sleep in your bed until they go off for college.  This was not an autism issue.  This is not a behavioral issue.  This is a rather puritan bias against co-sleeping made by authours who would never dream that a child could go up in a small apartment with only one or two bedrooms for four or more people.  If a parent can’t sleep with a child in their bed,  then yes,  you can suggest a behavioral method for teaching that child to sleep in their own bed. It is only a problem if it is a problem for the parent and they do not feel comfortable.  However, thousands of parents who practice Attachment Parenting, don’t see this as a problem.  We used to live in a small two bedroom flat with our in-laws and our son.   Co-sleeping was a fact of life not just for us, but for many families in our building. I think the authors of a Work in Progress would find that none of these foreign families have problems with their teenage children insisting on sleeping next to mom.  Many parents who believe in attachment parenting, will testify that their teenage children are not sleeping in their beds.  We chose to ignore this.  The authors of this book made a cultural judgment, not a developmental one.  Our son, Lukas, has always had the option of his own bed.  We have always put him to bed at night in his own bed.  Over the years,  he would get up in the night and lay down next to us.   Now, at seven,  he sleeps mostly in his own bed.  A few times a month, he gets up in the wee hours of the morning (4 or 5am) and comes in and snuggles until we get up at 7.  Even this is slowly fading.  For us, it wasn’t and isn’t  a problem. 

 

I must also confess a personal preference.   I like colourful people.   I like people who are unique and interesting.  I even like people from Berkeley, California. J   I am not sure that I would want just an average child who goes unnoticed in the world.  I can’t talk out of both sides of my mouth.  I can’t raise Lukas to be independent and to think for himself and then turn around and point out everything in his life that makes him look different from John Doe and Jane Doe.  I can’t teach him to accept differences and then turn around and cost response his differences. We have to strike a balance.

 

I would rather be the parent of the child that shocked an entire congregation by sitting in the bishop’s chair rather than in his pew and proclaimed that he wanted to become the next bishop than be the parent of a child who stares blankly at you and says “I dunno” when you ask them what they think they will do when they grow up.   With Lukas,  anything is possible.  He will be happy so long as we iron out those bad quirks. J

 

I don’t see our current job as all that different from a neurotypical parent’s. Broadly speaking,  we are hoping that we raise Lukas with habits in manners and civility.  We want him to learn to be kind and accepting.  We are also teaching him how to be independent and stand up for himself and his beliefs.  Perhaps if parents of neurotypical children spent even a fourth of the time that we do on this,   I would officially close the book on Fine-Tuning.   Unfortunately,  I think this process will go on another year or two.

 

 



[1] Teaching Your Child the Language of Social Success @ Amazon

[2] Steven Gutstein's Webpage

[3] Myrna Shure @ Amazon.com